...the sun is shining, and i feel happy. i want to skip class, go on a run, sunlight and freckles on my face. i want to jump and skip and sing. i want a playground for adults.
rome, like paris, surprises. one moment, i want to be gone, and the next, i want to run through the streets, and see everything, and never leave. it's weird how quickly feelings can change. it feels like i'm balancing on a see-saw, trying to remain in the middle, only to fall one way too quickly.
yesterday, the sun was shining, too. we traveled on a big bus around rome to visit urban gardens. our teacher daphne teaches us about the effect of gardens on people, tells us that something about open fields and growing things makes us feel wild, and
"in wilderness, there is the preservation of the world." -thoreau.
sometimes, sitting in a classroom, i listen to daphne speak about biodynamic agriculture, or about depressed artists who design gardens and find life satisfaction, or about the necessity of feeling wild to being human, and it seems like bullshit.
and then, suddenly, with no constraints or restraints on a field of greens on the outskirts of rome, i can't help but feel free, and in feeling free, feel wild. i want to leave this body of mine behind, fly somewhere, run and never stop.
driving back into the buildings, i try to carry this feeling with me, storing it in my pocket for times when the see-saw swings downward. and today, when i woke up, the feeling was opening itself again, even though i was inside a room with walls and ceilings and computers.
today i wish everyone could feel this way, could dream of wild flowers and feel free. feel happy. love from rome.
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